The Brand New Chapter of Life

Updates:)

2012-02-11T19:03:00.003+08:00

Aikiko Lanz Veromee says I might not be the perfect one but I am trying very hard to be one!

As promise my dearest readers that I will update my blog so today I am here to update. Sorry that I neglected my blog for so long cause too many events is coming like, example like New Year,Meng Teck's Birthday, Kai Hui's Birthday, Jessie's Birthday, Chinese New Year, My Birthday and coming up next is Joey's Birthday, Ann Li's Birthday and knowing my higher nitec application result. Scary uh? And i shall let the pictures do the talking!(p.s. due to my stupid phone hang some phone are missing!)

Perhaps let's talk about my first event of the year which is New Year actually I have no plans at all, I only met up with Kim Fook which I really very long did not see him already, Li En and Meng Teck eating and slacking at Tampines East Community Club de McDonald's. Then Kim Fook went off first but wait...Thanks for catching the three soft toys for me. It's cute. After the time reaches 12 on the dot, my phone start spamming and what me really surprise was Wei Cheng called me up just to say Happy New Year and heard that he is getting married soon. Cute or what. And that is how I end my new year.

My second event of the year was Meng Teck's Birthday. I met up with Li En, Meng Teck, Yi Ling, Ann Li, Joanne, Tien Hwa, Kenny Low, Kenny Thun, Ryan, Darren and Andy for dinner at Century Square basement, forget what is that shop name le. After which we went to Tampines Mall de open plaza to sing birthday song, cut cake, eat cake after which we took group photo then we went our separate ways and i be good girl went home!

My third event of the year was Jessie's Advance Birthday Celebration. I met up my two girls, Shi Hui and Ann Li after my work. Then we headed to Bugis to met up with Germaine, Jessie, Jessie's Boyfriend and one of Jessie's Friend then we had steamboat for dinner. After dinner, we went to Bugis Junction to take neoprints then we went our separate ways and as for me good girl once again. I went home!

My fourth event of the year was Shi Hui's Birthday. It was a rushing day for me as I went to airport to fetch my 坏蛋, Jian Chuan as he just returned back to Singapore from China. Miss him badly! After which, we took a cab to Xue Jing's house void deck and waited Xue Jing and her friends to come at the next cab. Then I walked to to buy a cake before heading to store. I secretly went to MDS to ask them help me to surprise but who know she turn her forehead. After all still enjoyable day. We ended with a birthday song, cut cake and eat cake but haha..Shi Hui kena cake on cheeks thanks to Kia Boon.

My fifth event of the year was Kai Hui's Birthday. Early morning..met her for breakfast at school then accompany her to do her registration, I guess that was her best birthday for going into a course she wanted then after which I went home. Then I met Yi Jun and Yi Xue around 4plus to buy cake then we head to tailor Yi Xue's pants after which we went to catch our train to Bedok to meet up with Jin Mei and Ben Ben. Then head to Bugis, MOF(Minster of Food) then had our dinner and our "dessert"(Birthday Cake) then we took group photo and some of them head home while me, Yi Xue and Mervin went to buy sushi and drinks at Starbucks while slacking after that we head back home.

My sixth event of the year was Chinese New Year and as usual that I will go back Malaysia to celebrate there as most of my relative stayed there too. But I suddenly felt this way, every Chinese New Year is always not enough cause we always have to rush here and there. On the day before Chinese New Year, We celebrated one of my cousin's birthday and her name is Tong Tong, well actually that is what we always called her and not her real name. I guess she must be really happy as her parent got her the mp3 that she wanted long ago but hey you know what i got the same mp3 with her as birthday gift too! And this year, AH Family went to each other house to Bai Nian.

My seventh event of the year was My 19th Birthday. I would like to thanks those people who wished me regardless through face to face,phone calls, SMS, Facebook or twitter. I also would like to thanks those people who gave me present and I will cherish those present, I promise! On my birthday that day, I met Joey for lunch at KFC then we head to Century Square and Tampines Mall to walk walk and she brought her portable charger and both of us got the same iPhone casing just that hers is purple while mine is pink, after which we head back our own home. I went home to settle some stuffs but awhile later I head out again. I went to meet up with Kai Hui, Yi Xue, Yi Jun and Mervin at Nihon Mura for dinner. I always enjoyed being with them, they never failed to cheer me up or brighten my days. Well, I also hear good news from them. Mervin and Yi Jun...You two must last long with your girls alright? And stop flirting! Haha...After we went slacking while Kai Hui went home. And that how I ended my 19th birthday. But that is not the end, on 31th January roughly at 5 plus, Yi Ling came to my house and look for me then at about 6, me and Yi Ling went to 201 to have dinner with Joanne. Li En, Meng Teck, Ann Li, Andy Teo and Andy Ong reached my house at around 8pm but while waiting we had some present presentation and photo sessions. After they reached, we sing song, cut cake, eat cake, play games and present presentation again. After that all went home. Hey guys, I really appreciate what you guys have done for me. I love it! Thank you<3

My eighth event of the year was having a gathering dinner at Mummy Chui Ting's house. There is alot people gather there like Josias LaoPa, Shaun, Florence, Hui May, Joanne, Kia Boon, Xue Ting, Jin Hua, Siew Lian, Chai Mei, Jeannie, May, Phooi Tiang and Shi Hui. After so long, We finally gather but i personally miss Chau alot too! I believe the rest too!

My ninth event of the year was having steamboat at home with my family member which only happen like two days ago. I was the one to buy ingredient and prepare the soup base, washing and cutting. It been so long that we last spend time like that, I enjoyed though tiring.

See...I got so many event on going. Then the next upcoming event will be later on at 4pm will be meeting Joey, the birthday to celebrate her belated birthday. Hehe...Someone legal le! Haha..Happy for her too! Got to work double hard girl! Seriously i must really make myself free to go down BDN to find friend, go queentown to see my god son,Aden and Michelle Lee & last but not least my dearest Daphne jiejie who waited for me till her neck could be as long as an giraffe! Just kidding. I really do miss all of them!

Sometimes in life, there is many thing that you wanna to do yet cannot fulfill. Just like you wanna be rich but everyone can do so. Some people is striving very hard to earn money just for themselves or their small family, the money might not be alot but at least they willing to work hard so that they will be paid for. So perhaps i wanna faster jump to next level to get a better paid just for my 1.7k school fees! Seriously, that is killing me!

2012-02-04T23:40:00.001+08:00

Stay Tuned for my next post! Sorry got not posting after so long><

2012-01-02T03:15:00.000+08:00

Hello Everybody, This is my first post of 2012! *Clap Clap* So guys did you all enjoyed your countdown? You all enjoyed your first day of the year 2012? Hope that you guys did cause i did enjoyed my first day of the brand new year, a brand new chapter and a brand new story. Morning woke up about 8 plus then go wash up and prepare to go out as me going out with my family and granny to DIN TAI FUNG to have our breakfast then after our breakfast we went shopping at the 3 shopping malls located at tampines but half way through dad & granny went off as granny going back malaysia and dad is accompanying her back as she is alone and she is getting old le. We also dont feel good to let her go back alone too. While eldest sister head to work, so ya we went shopping till 5pm plus. Lunch at MANPUKU...Went home sit on bed and i fell asleep! Gosh...This show how tired am i. Went to shower after awhile then we started to sping cleaning and it only ended at 12am plus but in between we had dinner too. MY ROOM CLEARED! Weee~ Ending here as tomorrow got to work! Night people. Have a great year ahead..

With Loves,
Hui Luan

2012-01-02T02:00:00.000+08:00

Hellos guys, I'm back! Anyone miss me? Haha...So bhb of me! Time really flies by so quickly and today is the last of DECEMBER while tomorrow is the start of JANUARY 2012(Time, Please go slower during JANUARY can? My birthday month lehs!) There is many mistakes i have made, many quarrels can be avoided, many fights could have peacefully solved and many fun to enjoy! Sorry for all the mistakes i have done, the upset feeling i have caused, the foolish act that you guys did for me just to wake me up! Something very random...*Can i don't work?* So as usual, i will do my conclusion of the year follow by new year resolution and lastly my specially to people! Spot your name out there alright! So what you waiting for...Here we go!

Conclusion for 2011
This year life is as per normal just that my relationship with my eldest sister is better already compared to last time. Mum & Dad is still naggy like as usual. I went to an new environment, new place, new school, new faces, new teachers, new friends and new classmates. Though i really do miss those fun during my secondary school days but life still got to move on right? I was attached but broke up after 2 months, i liked someone and the person yet he is just playing. Seriously what is this going on? Screwed up life uh? I quarreled with my friends because of him. I made myself like mad woman which no one know. I cried like mad. WTF! But well whatever lahs, i learn my lesson and still trying real hard to walk out and move on. People, please give me your support alright? I NEED YOUR SUPPORT!

New Year Resolution
*Able to go Higher Nitec.
*Study hard which mean no more skipping of class nor lessons.
*A better grade of GPA.
*Get into a course that i wanted.
*No more piglets and chocolates for birthday gift as i have too many piglets and chocolates already and my mum is complaining already.
*A memorable birthday celebration.
*A personal pink laptop.
*A personal pink camera
*Promoted to manager

People, Please enjoy your last day of 2011 and have a great day ahead starting from 2012! I will see you all at 2012. IT'S PARTY TIME!

With Loves,
Lim Hui Luan

2011-12-09T14:21:00.000+08:00

我很想继续做下去可是你们比我不想做了！很累，你们知道吗？我们也是人，也应该有人的权利。

2011-12-01T03:12:00.002+08:00

Hey there! How you guys doing out there. Today is my first day of holiday, happy to the max! Now having a headache with should i go back to TN3, McDonald's and work or should i get another job? I need advice! To my true friends out there, how are you guys doing? Hope that you guys are doing fine! Really hope to see or meet you all up soon! Looking at those fringe i had, I SERIOUSLY LOOK LIKE ONE SMALL KID NOW! GOSH~ Ohya..I gonna be godmother soon as MichelleLeeMeiMei's son, Addy whom is coming on earth 22 December(might be earlier or later) is my god son! Haha...so happy! I have all my time from now till april, gonna chiong work for money but at the same time i also wanna enjoy myself and party like siao! Is AH family drifting apart? I hate this drifting feeling! I hate being kicked aside, i hate being alone, i hate being left out! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! Please tell us all this is just a dream! So near yet so far><! Every single goodbye bring a single little heartbreaks!

Let Picture Do The Talking...
McCare & TN3 Crew Outing

Powerhouse

In life, there is many choices that you have to make but there are times whereby you will be stuck in the middle and dont know what to do. And that is when your friends that will be there for you will jump into the picture. Who are the ones who will always be there for you and who are the ones who are just trying to make use of you, it seem like i have get clear the people who are true to me or not! In this world, no one is prefect. We do have our own flaws!

2011-11-09T04:05:00.000+08:00

There is so many drastic changes in my life now...Seriously what is going on? If you were to ask me, I don't think i would be able to answer you back cause i do not know why? Sorry _ _ _ _, i promise that i wont cry le but i still broke my own promise! Haven been resting well for the past three days which includes today, haven been eating and have been crying for the past two days? What is going on?? I felt so failed! I swear i really failed for my entire of my life! For 18 years, This is the first time i am so crazy! I think i don't even deserve those worries. I am just so useless! USELESS~

*He is the first guy that could make me smile without doing anything.*

My silly girl, Yi Ling..
Thanks for letting me know how worried you are...
That proved that i really failed le.
Sorry to make you worry,
I can't promise i will be okays but please don't worry cause i will take care.
Making you cry, My bad!
But i don't wish too either!
My tears just don't wish to listen to me.

Short updates

2011-10-28T02:21:00.002+08:00

Business Day (25/10)

I was kinda late cause it suppose to be reaching school by 8am but i think i reached 8.30am cause i took a cab to school. Regretted taking a cab to school at such a early morning cause got surcharge! Suppose to be less than 5 dollars cab fare end up to be nearly 9 dollars cab fare. Heartbroken...Manage to found my store then prepare to set up the store while me start pulling people i know to buy items from me! Many thanks to Li En, Yi Ling, Joanne, Meng Teck, Andy, Gary, Terrence, Rickson, Zhen Da, Jason, Mervin, Calius and Azlynn! Me kept running around like mad women then had my break at Campus Heaven with Li En, Joanne & Yi Ling. After my break then i went back to our store to pack up then took a class and dismiss then went to cafe 1 to have dinner and talk with some BLs! Then rush back home then rush to work and go home.

Deepavali(26/10)

I am suppose to attend work at 8am but my cough & other illness is back so no choice stayed at home lorhs! Well i can counted that i slept the whole day! 12 or 1am plus go sleep then 10 or 11am plus then wake up then daddy pack breakfast home for me as he know that i wasn't feeling well. So help to prepare lunch then after that eat lunch then sleep through all.

Boring Thursday(27/10)

Gosh...Today i am really super late for school! ><...I am suppose to attend school at 10am but guess what time i woke up? Yup...you never see wrong! Is 12noon..so i took half an hour to wash up and prepare to go school but end up found out that they having break le. So went to Eastpoint to meet Jia En, Fu Ming, Ming Wei & Jacqueline to had my lunch at eighteen chefs. After lunch then we walk back school then head down to pool center to see then end up played a few rounds not me is the boys. Then went to my lesson and walked up to class with Mr Saifudin and had a short chat with him. After lesson, went to meet nicholas and had a nice chat with him. After that he sent me home then i cooked dinner for my lil bro and daddy then slack and talk phone with Li En and Gary.

2011-10-07T01:08:00.001+08:00

Aikiko Lanz Veromee Says: Life change reality, reality change people, people change you and me.

Hellos guys, school have reopen for ite students. How's everyone doing? I know that those April Intake students received their result and gotten their GPA scores. Well what I can say is those who do well then keep it up the good work and aim for a better and a higher grade. While those who did not do so well then this semester must really buck up. Jiayou everyone!!!

Life is like such a bitch for me nowadays, don't ask me why cause even me myself wanna know why am I like that. In life, if you have your own cliques to clique with. Then tell me, you would rather clique with them or join other group? Well I bet our answer will be the same as mine, that is clique with your own cliques. Then when you with your cliques, I believe you don't like the feeling of being alone and being left out...CAUSE I REALLY HATE THE FEELING BEING LEFT OUT!

He is going national service soon, he already went for his check up. This is what I been cursing and swearing but why am I feeling the kind of don't bear him go? Perhaps I afraid I can't see him in school anymore. Well why am I still thinking and caring for him when he already have another half! Haiz...

LIFE IS SUCH A BITCH LAHS SIA!

2011-09-26T02:13:00.001+08:00

Have been quite sick recently, I am down with fever, flu, cough and headache. Saying about about this make me think of that day wanna go see doctor end up when I reach there, the stupid clinic is open but the doctor is not in. So tell me what's the point opening the clinic when the doctor is not in. Fed up...

Recently I got mixed up feeling which I am really lost what to do? Feel like the god is making fool of me. Should I or should I not? Been crying this few days but luckily got Lydia and Jing Yi pei me. Thanks girls! Memories song...安静，依然是朋友，绝口不提爱你，心肝宝贝 and a little love.

Disappointment

2011-09-24T22:25:00.001+08:00
When I am sick, who is here to take care me? Haiz...end up is quarrel instead! FML..

What is going on?

2011-09-24T03:23:00.001+08:00
Today, too things happen. All my mind is are you okays? Are you alright? Knowing that you hurt yourself, I do feel sad bit there is nothing I could do cause I not your anyone. Well...all I could is to advise you and make sure you eat regularly. I know you kept telling me that it is nothing going to do with me but when I see that situation, I was like...huiluan you should really just shut your mouth up instead of saying it. Thanks for being the one who is there for me regardless is the past or now. You are the one who stood by me for all those problems I met. Thanks for always caring and concerning about me, no matter how long we never met. Baby, if I have a choice, I will still choose you cause I have never regretted to be with you and knowing you. Will I carry on waiting for you?I guess I will bahs...

2011-09-23T13:54:00.000+08:00

Hi guys... I am back to update my blog! This time round i also changed my blogskin and this credit goes to my dearest 135 whom help me do those codes(which i am not good in it). Been running in and out the hospital for the past two days to take care that silly girl, Vanessa but glad that she is fine right now. After she was discharge, we(Me, Li En and Meng Teck) went to her house to wait for her to get change as Vanessa's Dad drove us back to their house. Well, this is the first time i went to Vanessa's house! After which, we bus-ed to tampines interchange and head to CPF Building KFC for our so called breakfast cum lunch then went to MengTeck's house to slack awhile and play with those cute babies hamster! And i swear that they are damn freaking cute but beware that they do bite! Soon not later WenKai join us then we head to century square to get our movie tickets as we are watching johnny english reborn. This show is super worth to watch it again, i swear! After which we head home and went separate ways.Recently i am down with flu, cough, fever and headache! Arrggg...shouldn't be sick at this timing lorhs! DAMN!

其实连我自己喜欢谁我都不知道？天啊！不要这样耍我。。我可是好不容易把它给忘记的！

2011-09-04T00:29:00.000+08:00

Aikiko Lanz Veromee: Is this my life? I don't want to have this kind of life!

Hey guys, how have you guys been doing? Doing great, doing fine, doing good? Well...i have been neglecting this blog for a very long time. Cause i am always just too busy with other stuffs. Well..Just an short update about me & my life! Recently i have received my malaysian army letter which makes me super down, lost & don't know what to do. Thanks to alot friends regardless is my primary school, secondary school, ite or work. They have been really understanding and console me when i am really down! Thanks people<3! Now i am waiting for my defer letter to be inform whether it is success anot! I am really praying hard that it will be success cause i really do not want to go back as i am not familiar with malaysia area plus i am going a place whereby even my dad don't even know where is it? If they really not coming to visit me how? My dad temper is really bad, this few days perhaps is due to my letter thing! WHAT SHOULD I DO? Talking about my work, many people been leaving and transfer one by one!
Lydia transfer to Changi City Point..

Alif Resigned...

Riza go back Indonesia..

XueTing transfer to Bedok Interchange..

Gonna miss them alot, without them, the whole store seem no fun at all! Just wish them all the best...Last thursday, i went to universal studio with germaine, yan de, yan de's friend and amos! And i really enjoyed myself, i guess i go long never like this enjoy myself le! As the army date get nearer i am more worried cause i don't know how am i suppose to face this alone! Though it is just 3 months but to me this 3 months is a torture for me! But this army thing let me clearly know who is true to me. Shall not mention name but thanks for letting see your true colour cause i know after i leave you won't feel anything! Jiu dang wo bai jiao ni zhe ge peng you bahs! Lastly take care people!

2011-08-03T22:00:00.001+08:00
Hellos guys, how are you guys doing? Hope that you guys are doing good! Recently i don't have the time to update my dearest blog! I'm sorry that i neglected this blog as i really far too busy with too many school work. Life have been really busy for me! Time really passes by so quickly and now is already AUGUST! A brand day month...Just a little some update which i can recalled!

28.07.2011
School as per normal...As always so tiring! After school, half of the UO1101E class went to CPF McDonald's for dinner! We had a great meal! After the meal, we went back to school for a talk till 9pm plus nearly and after which i went home and prepare my camp stuff!

29.07.2011
My first day of camp, met yiling, li en and justina at interchange for breakfast and desmond joined us! After which we head to school, it is tiring but quite fun after all but too bad i down with flu so i didn't really enjoy all the games!

30.07.2011
I couldn't sleep last night at all and now i am so so tired cause my illness went worse! Gosh~ The highlight of tonight is the campfire! It is really FUN, i swear! I guess everyone enjoyed themselves after which i gave my daddy a message to fetch me home and he called me up to tell me where to meet him up. Thank you Adrain who help me carry my super heavy bag! After i reached home, i unpacked my stuff and i went to shower then head to bed!

31.07.2011
Best day of my life, I SWEAR! All i ever did today was to sleep and eat cause i was sick and lazy to do anything~ At night, i went to met up yiling to rush my project work.

01.08.2011 - 03.08.2011
Just like any other schooling day! So BORING =.-!

2011-07-11T17:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the most enjoyable of all my holidays, as i most of the time have to work, facing break up, learning to move on, friends outing and birthday bbq or chalet. I went UNIVERSAL STUDIO with Germaine, the birthday girl. We took many photos together, i guess this is tthe first time that we took so many photos. After that germaine head to enous to take bus 13 home while me head to tampines to take bus 291 to Tampines Mart as my dearest Kak Lydia will be transferring out soon so this is so called the gathering and photo session before they transfer out! So sad...All the good managers is going to be transferring out soon.

As for today, It is a new semster, a brand new day, a brand new week, a brand new start for SCHOOL! Okays, i am back to school already and i manage not to fall asleep in class! I swear i am super duper tired! Today, Daphne and gang told me many thing about relationship stuff. And i broke my promise to myself, i told myself that i won't cry, i won't cry but i still cry! I wanna get over him but the more i wanna forget him, the more i remember him. Just like yesterday i went Vivo, memory flash back and make me remind that we came Vivo before to watch movie, after the movie and we went to settle our dinner. And we head to Henderson Wave... Seriously if you want me to remove or erase this memories from my head is hard cause everywhere is HIM HIM AND STILL HIM. Boy, Actually i still miss you alot alot! Hope you know~

2011-07-10T19:28:00.002+08:00
Hello everyone, it have been quite awhile since I last touched my blog and I know it look super dead. Recently I just too tired and plain lazy to update the blog. Well, since right now I got the time to update then why not better than sleep right cause while updating my blog, I am on the mrt back to tampines as I heading back tampines mart now for a small gathering and photo session with Lydia as she will be transfer out of TN3. I gonna miss her man, she is one of my best managers.

Lost without your love~

2011-06-24T14:52:00.001+08:00
Hellos Readers, I am back on blogging. And yes, i changed my blogskins again! I guess i have nothing better to do, recently in my life, there is just too much things that is happening around me which make me don't know how to accept the reality! Truth/Reality sucks cause this two is the most important factors that cause the hurt! Having the hurt is like having a cut, though time might heal the cut but the scar will be always there. There will always be a mark there, whenever you see it and you will think of it so you will be sad again! And right now, I am in this kind of situation. I am so lost and i have no idea what am i suppose to do? Silly much uh? Firstly, I already lost my strongest pillar cause to them, i am from rubbish dump and now i lost my greatest motivation! And yes, i lost everything. I know it is not like end of the world losing him but you all do not know how much he mean to me! Some people say I gave him too much freedom while some say maybe is because both of us kept busy our stuff so lead to now this ending. This is not the ending that I wanna see. I know that it might be my own wishful thinking but still I don't wanna end up this way. I know death is not a solution to solve a problem but death can leave this world with no pain. I know you guys might think that I am talking rubbish again but frankly this mindset have been in my mind for quite awhile le. How wish I could end it now, so that I won't be so miserable and terrible. Thanks friends that have been always accompany me throughout this period of time cause I have no idea what I will do if I was left alone. Maybe more silly stuff might be coming up?!?! Haiz... BaoXiao is transferring to east coast park during July! Gonna cry again I guess, I remember that whenever I need him and he will be there but now he is promoted, of course I am happy but I don't want him to leave. Now all I hope is all can remain at this store except some people which I don't wish to mention names. Will I ever be strong again? Will I be back the happy, cheerful and noisy de me?? I wondering...Okay! I got to go now as I working at change airport terminal 2 today. Come down visit me if you want to. Bye readers<3

BabyBoy, I still miss you.
I still love you.
I still care for you.
But...Will you still miss me, love me and care for me?

2011-06-15T21:38:00.004+08:00

Hellos everyone, how are you guys doing? I haven been updating this blog for quite awhile already. I hope that everyone is doing fine cause I don't think that I am doing fine out here. Well..I should say it is totally failure in life. Some people may start to ask me, isn't something happen to you or what so ever? Well, something happen in my life seem like my daily routine already, isn't it? Being super random, why the weather is so so hot??? I cannot stand it sia!! Well... Okays back to the topic. I just give you guys a rough idea that what kind of life I am leading now okays. Please be more patience with me cause I know I might sound like one auntie that love to complaint but I'm not. I just trying to find something to blog before my blog really dead. Some people know that this is not my blogging style cause I used to love blog alot. I surely will what I do everyday. But don't know since when, it all change till become like this. I miss alot people that appear in my life cause now i having my holidays, now either do i rot at home, find my boyfriend, out with friends or work. It seem like a normal routine, wanna go out enjoy sometime but always there is some rules to follow and some restriction! This is something which i dislike too! Okays i guess i better stop blogging and start preparing for my work as i working midnight shift tonight and tomorrow. Shall try to update my blog when i free okays? Tata! Arrggg...I miss my babyboy! I love my babyboy<3
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Dear BabyBoy<3,
It have been a few days that you have been in this situation,
I'm really worried for you.
I don't wish to see you in this way neither do i wanna see you struck in there too long.
I gonna be really frankly to you..
On Monday,
I purposely went down to bugis to take a look if you are okay anot?
After i seeing you working without a smile,
I was kinda sad cause i said before that your smile influence people especially me.
Do you ever know that you really motivate me alot?
Recently haven been seeing you,
I really wish to see you as i really do miss you alot.
I wish to talk to you...
Maybe even a open talk,
I don't mind as long as i can talk to you and knowing that you are fine.
If there is really a time machine,
I wish that time would stop at the sweetest moment that we have.
I really hope we can really meet up real soon okays?
I love you & I miss you!
This song is dedicated to you, hoping you like it!

With Loves,
Hui Luan

Would You Be There
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...

2011-06-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

I have tolerate what more than i have suppose...You guys are getting on my nerve and climbing up my head! For your fucking information, I am human too! Not someone for you to hit..I am elder than you also counted as you elder. Mind you! You with your attitude is really up to my limit! I am seriously thinking if i should carry on tolerate you or show you what is my true colour!

2011-05-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

Aikiko Lanz Veromee says: I don't want ALIF to leave TN3!!

In life, people come and go! But why is this such a good manager? I don't want, i really don't want. I still hoping for the best that he will come back as a floor manager! Alif is really a super nice manager, he seldom show or throw his temper. Where ever you go, you are able to his beautiful smile on his face. The smile on his face is hard to wipe off from his face. A sweet guy that know how to cheer up people. A good person to let us tickle him or poke him! Alif, please please come back cause we miss you! Will be waiting for your good news! As for now, take care and strive for your dream! ALL THE BEST IN WHATEVER YOU DO! TN3 is always there for you!

2011-05-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

Aikiko Lanz Veromee says: I am freaking happy today! Wee~

Hello people, how have you guys been doing? It have been ages ever since i updated this blog. Like super duper long uh? Well...Life is so tiring in time! Recently have been really damn busy. Lack of sleep...keep having headache!

Today went out to cineleisure to watch movie, paul with boyfriend. Nice show, boyfriend is also cute lahs. Miss him alot..After 2 weeks plus never see him, finally can meet him le lahs! He tricked me yesterday, evil much right? Haha, his nose kena pinch by me! Laughs! I love my boyfriend alot! <3

Asyraf, my dearest boyfriend..
You been the sweetest thing i ever have in my life ever since you entered my life on 19042011.
You taught me many things in life.
Always protect me from getting bully and hurt.
I thank you for this while you take care me.
You been really sweet to me.
Although you don't really have the time for me due to your work, band and studies.
But you still will give a try.
Much appreciated for that.
My feeling for you have never fade but it grown deeper each day.
Dear, I love you!

With Loves,
Lim Hui Luan

2011-04-28T21:41:00.000+08:00

Have you ever afraid that you will lost your way back home, being left alone in the middle of the road and there is no one to help or to accompany you? I believe when everyone was young, at least there is one time that you were lost in the shopping center and looking for parents! Have you think about this when you are old, when you have memory lost then you forget your way home? Few days ago, when i was on the way home from Tampines Mart after checking my working schedule and chatting with YiLing. At near by Ngee Ann Secondary School Bus Stop, there is one auntie approach me as she wanted to borrow phone from me to make a phone call. I helped her make the phone call, then keep her accompany as i believe she is afraid and she kept asking me question repeatedly. Well, that remind me of this. When you grow old as the days goes by, your memory will drop eventually. Keep them accompany and not to left them alone as they will afraid. But that day, i was really happy as i did a good deed!

Frankly speaking, what is wrong with me recently? I having a mood swing or what. Gonna cool myself down man. School have alot progress test coming up...Going crazy soon~

2011-04-24T21:09:00.001+08:00
I wanna hold you tight, boy!

2011-04-24T00:11:00.001+08:00
Dear Simon HKT,
How are you doing?
We miss you. =(

2011-04-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

Aikiko Lanz Veromee says: She is on the verge of breaking down!

It is gonna be a long weekend for this week but there is endless work for me to do. But as long as got babyboy that alright. Arrggg...I miss him! I guess i starting my nonsense again.

Life was like so troubled, there is some i ask myself what i really want? I can stare at the sea or sky but ended up with no conclusion.(Just like this picture above) I am just walking aimlessly in my life, no goal at all. What a boring life right? School, work, school ,work. Arrggg...Who can save me out man?

I'm getting more and more tired of school, it is not because i dislike school or my course. It is because i am afraid being left out, i am afraid being lonely, i am tired being a hypocrite. ALL IS DAMN FREAKING FAKE, THIS IS NOT WANT I WANNA BE! I seriously felt like quitting school, Sufian, my brother asked me, what's wrong with me, why and how come recently i been skipping school or lesson? Why i have the idea of quitting school. Seriously, i don't know who is the one that tell him but i hope that this person will stop whatever he/she is doing, after all this is my life. If my parents have agree with it then what more you can say?

I miss how i played with my mum today at home during dinner time, it have been a very very long time that i have like this play with her. She piggy back me & i piggy back her! Like so cool right? Although there is time, i dislike this family due to quarrels and stuff but still we are blood related. I want everyday to be like today. COOL OR WHAT!

LOST

2011-04-19T00:25:00.000+08:00

Aikiko Lanz Veromee says: I love walking in the rain cause no one know that i am raining!

Why get you just let me off? Do everyone do thing like you, do certain thing with a motive or intention behind? Why are you doing all this? Is this what i suppose to get from you? Why did you change so much? Change until a person which like i never know before? What going on? I am totally lost! Perhaps it is time to be independent, sometime is not i don't wanna tell others what happen to me. I just felt like everyone have his/her own problems, by telling them i might be adding to their trouble/problem/burden. That is why there are times, i would rather keep thing to myself.

BTSS CHOIR GIRLS ROCKS ~
Today, I went back to Bedok Town Secondary School cause i know that it's their big day...SYF(Singapore Youth Festival). BTSS Choir Girls, they really improve alot and they done a great job although the result is kinda disappointment cause in my own view, i think they can get gold. But girls what have done, is already done so let's just look forward alright. So cheer up girls, remember..it is not the medal that matter, it is the process. As long you did enjoy it, then just take this as a experience. Keep it up the good work that you all have done, i can see the effort that each and everyone of you put in.

Starting to hate school more and more, don't ask me why. Cause even me, myself, i also don't know why. Perhaps i am really tired of being lefted out, last time is like this and now still the same. Well, i admit i scare of lonely but don't you scare of it too? Being a hypocrite is even tiring...please lahs!!
GIVE ME A BREAK!!

2011-04-07T01:17:00.000+08:00
Hello readers, I'm back! It have been quite a while since I last updated this blog! How is everyone doing? I'm pretty fine too but I have my setbacks too that I have to learn how to face it.
On 31th March, me together with my classmates and mr Zaidi, we went to pulau ubin for class outing though there is quite many of them did not went for the outing bit we manage to get the half of the class there, I enjoyed myself there though there is alot of mozzies which I hate it. Then we head back to change village for lunch, after which we head to change beach park to play bonding games and relaxation. After everything, me, my cliques, Edwin and justina head back to tampines interchange after which justina, jia en and Edwin went home first while me and the rest went to century square to settle our dinner after which all decided to went home. Actually decided to bedok but due to laziness and tiredness, I went home and sleep.
On 1st April, which is april fool, people start fooling me in the early morning but they failed to do so cause ended they were fool back by me. But I was tricked by Asyraf!! The evil guy..haha!
Well the rest are all nothing much to update, well I signing off now as tomorrow have BL mass training, nights people.

2011-03-23T09:26:00.002+08:00
Ever since holiday have started, i have been working like mad! I thought this could stop me from thinking so much but look like i am wrong~

2011-03-20T00:15:00.000+08:00
Have anyone been ask to go out but ended up being left alone or being thrown aside at the roadside all alone yet no one care to bother or concern. I experience that 2 days ago, i was being thrown alone after i just step out of my house. I have no where to go, i was so lost and upset that i did not pick up anyone's call and worst still i still switch off my phone for some quiet and peace moment. I was so upset that i anyhow board a bus and anyhow alight and landed up to a place that i am not familiar. So my journey started from tampines to bedok, hougang, sengkang and lastly back to tampines. Through out this bus journey, out of a sudden, there is this question suddenly pop out from my mind. What am i to them? A friend? A tool? A toy? Frankly speaking..I have no idea! Out of a sudden i have this kind of feeling. I ask myself is that what i wanted but the answer which i have gotten was no as i haven really enjoyed my life before. My life story is always so suck, don't ask me why cause even i, myself don't even know why. I always wanting to enjoy my life but it seem like i can never enjoy it. Perhaps i am too emotional but that the fact. I guess no one can feel the same as me as being thrown alone at the roadside, that feelings is totally sucks to the max! I hate that feeling~! Perhaps i should not study anymore, i should just come out work instead make me, myself so miserable. When can i ever enjoy my life with no troubles? Haiz...I guess i will never enjoy it! Life sucks...Another working day tomorrow. Got to go first...Bye guys~

2011-03-17T08:01:00.004+08:00
The sky is raining and it is telling me that they are crying. This rain is pouring just like my feeling right now. But come on enough of all those crying and stuff! I know you can do it...You ain't that weak de, LIM HUI LUAN!! I made up my mind..I decided to...(Hahas...Can't tell! It meant to be a secret)~!

2011-03-16T01:14:00.000+08:00
I really love UO1101E, although there are times whereby i miss my secondary school times but i do enjoyed being together with them in school. The feeling is awesome to have them studying with them together everyday. Thanks people that came and cheer me up today. I am being emotional again once again. Ms Angeline Tan was right, our class is damn emotional.

2011-03-01T00:13:00.001+08:00
For no reason, recently listen jiu will cry. Well perhaps i am kinda too emotional le bahs. Haiz!! No mood!

2011-02-25T07:59:00.000+08:00
Camp was really awesome...although that date is a date which i hatred alot but i had fun and i had a great chat with bull, my instructor. We chatted till 1am plus nearly 2am. Then had alot of king kong(s) outside walking that make the boom boom sound. Hahas...Me and Jacqueline Nu-Er was so hungry that we took out our cup noodle and eat. Laughs...Then went to the boys room...I sitted down there awhile jiu tired le. So i went back to my room and sleep! Yawns yawns...Today gonna accompany Yiling ZhiNu to go do her stuff at my school.

2011-02-22T09:43:00.000+08:00
Hi guys...How you guys been doing?? Good or Bad?!?! Well...Me having alot of common test this week and what more is my camp is tomorrow while my common test is today and friday! Gosh...how am i suppose to memorize! School is pretty fine...I guess i still coping well! Although it seem there is come problems in between. I miss my secondary school cliques and friends...It been quite awhile ever since i last saw them all together at school area for my birthday celebration. Wondering how have been doing le. Hoping that they are doing and really hope to see them real soon. Time pass by really so quickly and now is end of febuary le...And march is coming. Seriously i don't think this year is a great year for me, many things happen on me and i hate that feeling. It's sucks! I doubt no one will understand this kind of feeling bahs. I admit that i am very emotional but ask yourself this, who don't have emotion unless you are a cold-blooded animal lorhs.

2011-02-08T01:18:00.000+08:00
Hellos people, after a few days and i am back! I shall find more time to update my blog, no worries! How is everybody out there? Doing fine? I guess i might break down anytime...Recently i am really damn depress! Where is Mdm Rachel?? I need her counseling sessions with those comfy sofa where i can lie on it and sleep!

ITE school life is pretty awesome with one bunch of cool friends with me, although we always hit each other, tease each other but when we need help and they are surely there for you. Love them so much...

But i still miss my secondary school life, i do have good friends inside too. Earlier part of the day, me and Felicia was still talking what we have done in our last two years of school life! Somehow i still felt bad for her in times cause there is time whereby i throw her aside just to be emo or doing my own revision. No matter how we drifted apart and she is still there for me! No matter is last two years or now. I really grateful and thankful to have this kind of friends. Also not forget Celina, KaiHui, Vanessa, Mervin,YiJun, WangHong, ChingCheng, JingJie and last but no least Clara! They play a very important role in my life!

Perhaps to some other people, BTSS might not be a good school or i should say it is known as a gangster school but they have good and friendly people there! Although there might not be good teachers there but there are caring teachers there. But i miss Mdm Jennifer Tan to manage the school instead of the new principal now. Perhaps too used to her ways already!

Love life still like no change cause i am still single. No one want mahs...Ke lian right? Haiz..Valentine is coming! I want pink roses and chocolates lahs!! But too bad...no boyfriend surely again be lonely. SAD DIE ME =(

Shall head to sleep le as it is getting late le. Tomorrow still got school and test. Night people! <3

2011-02-07T10:05:00.001+08:00
Maybe i should give up? Perhaps all along i am

the fool. Haiz~

2011-02-06T01:12:00.000+08:00
Hellos guys, i'm back from posting also back from malaysia. So how you guys spend your holidays? Did you guys enjoy it? I didn't really enjoy mine. Well...But is alright as long as we are together as one. This year de CNY doesn't seem like CNY. Don't know why lehs...But i do have some fun like lighting the KONG MING DIAN & LEPAK SESSION with my mum's side de cousins! Tomorrow will be meet my ITE cliques for pool session. Wait wait...not i play pool. Is i watch them play. Laughs!

It have been quite awhile that i think am i a substitution to anyone or everyone that i know? Whenever i put my feelings in le then end up found out i been played by others. What is all this man? Come on...I am not a toy for you guys. Although this thing happen quite long ago...but you still sucks to the max! And i can frankly tell you that you make me lose trust on you. I really trust you, i thought you were the best among all of them but end up like what others told me? Am i someone to you that can fool around easily? It marks the end for every effort i ever tried to put in for you! GOODBYE!

At least i am glad i still got friends whom care and concern for me that is always there for me, and i know they will never throw me alone. I seriously wanna thanks them cause without them i really do not know how to move on. Once is a friend, forever is friends!

Family is always the most sucky stuff that i ever wanna talk about. I just wish that i could faster turn 21 and get all those freedom that i suppose to have and leave this home. I never want to stay here anymore, i afraid one day i cannot take it anymore then i shall do what i have do it last time. What a "entertaining family" horx?

2011-02-01T00:30:00.000+08:00
I suppose to be very happy due to finally legal age le..
But...HAIZ!

2011-01-20T00:02:00.003+08:00
Why some people life is so much more easier to walk while others is so hard? My birthday is coming yet i can't get some peace. Give me a break, will you? I am not as strong as you thought off. There is time whereby i will break down too! Haiz =(

I SWEAR FROM NEXT WEEK ONWARD, I SHALL USE WORK TO NUMB MYSELF!

2011-01-18T00:29:00.000+08:00
This is my very first post on my new blog..Life have change alot along the path way that i walk through. Many things happen in between too..Well i thought we were fine until today. The distance between us is further and further. I ever thought that i could pull back the distance but i am so so wrong.